It Does Matter

I had a conversation with those at the fires one day.. Fonce and Silken. I said it did not matter if I liked someone to be mated.. perhaps I said that because I had never actually liked anyone.. Had never really given it much thought.. but I was wrong.. so very wrong.. It does matter.. as I found out after being pawed by the warrior Brayce.. I did not enjoy it.. and how can you go through life if you do not enjoy being close to one that you will be with forever.. It would seem that my lack of knowledge on that subject was quickly put to the test.. It does matter..

Now I understand a little better.. what my mother meant when she said to be with someone you do not care for or love is like being caught in a spiders web.. Stuck and alone. unless the spider pays a call.. But I am very curious as to how one shows interest without seeming forward.

I would like to get my feet wet.. but not drench myself.. slowly like you would get use to a hot bath.. or a cold one... slowly.. taking it step by step.. never giving all but enough..and you know it safe to fully emerge yoursef.. No one likes to be rejected.. I will have to pay heed to those around me that are more adept at this kind of thing... Or maybe I could ask one of my brothers if I could practice on them... :smiles:

Sam has feed his girl to his kaiila... guess he found her sitting in one to many laps.. and not his.. Far be it from me to tell him I told you so.. city slaves... not worth the dung they collect.. Only reason know this is because he brought his laundry to my wagon for me to do.. He grunted when I said what happened to the girl.. That seems to be something inbreed in our warriors... the ability to grunt.. they all seem to do it.. at various things said... but I understood him.. I was kinda glad anyway.. never did like her much.. sneaky if you ask me...

Well I got off the subject.. Anyway.. When I see Fonce again I will tell him I was wrong.. It does matter.. whether I like someone or not.. But.. If whom ever I like does not return the affection.. then I move on... Certainly not going to grovel at his feet.. like some slut.. no sir eee bob.. no man is worth that much.. Not that I am saying something bad would not happen.. for this is Gor and the plains.. and many things can and have happened... but if ever I was thrown naked at some warriors feet.. I would find a way to end my life.. or his :grins: No I will never be a leaf caught in some spiders web.. I would much rather be like a butterfly.. and fly free..