Someone to Talk To..

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I was so happy for Seve when she told him that Ayg had set a brideprice.. I know she wanted this more than anything in the world.. but she has changed.. she actually has changed little by little since the day she submitted to him.. And now that he has claimed her, I do not see the old Seve there anymore..

I guess this is the compromise I hear about when you get claimed.. YOU compromise and become that they want.. When he is not around she is looking for him.. when he is around she is almost in his lap..I gave up trying to drag her off for adventures.. I do not know how to talk to her anymore.. every word out of her mouth is about Fonce.. its like an obsession.. I love them both dearly.. but this is not what I expected to happen when he claimed her... I thought things would go on as they had.. We would still be able to go off and have fun.. but that was not to be..

I don't think I will be so obesessive or possestive when I mate.. I would like an equal balance of my life.. I refuse to give up who I am to be what he wants.. I am at a loss as to what to do.. I know she thinks I am mad at her.. but its not that.. Maybe once the newness wears off she will go back to being Seve. instead of Fonce's mate..

Myabe I did not think of the consequences of her mating.. maybe this is how its suspose to be.. at his call always.. Being an old verr handler is sounding better and better each day..

I miss my friend.. I really do.. but I will not get between her and Fonce.. I will not make her think she has to make a choice.. I am perfectly capable of being alone..

I wish it would rain... its so darn hot.. But we are on the move.. finally.. something to keep my mind busy... Sam is going to be driving our team of wagons.. my hands are not quite ready to take the wear and tear of the reins.. My other brothers have moved closer to the 1st fire wagons... I think the death of Ord has made them all realize what we have and how we must preseve it.. Its Mother now.. and the boys and me.. We are all she has.. and we will take care of her..