What I Want!

After the fires conversation hit bottom.. I left for my wagons.. Tasco stalked off somewhere to lick his wounds.. We did not understand.. Oh I understood just fine.. he wants the cake and eat it.. and all the trimmings with no emotional ties.. Just like some men

Well here is what I want.. and need.. A partner.. a warrior that will love me and only me.. care for me as I would him.. Not to be pampered and set on some shelve.. or to be his brood mare... but to share.. everything.. each deep dark secret.. two lives bound into one.. Is that out there? I am not so sure anymore..

I will wait.. I have all the time in the world.. and in no hurry.. I thought I knew something and I really didn't. So its not my time.. I will not change my values to match someone elses. They are mine and mine alone...

I have not turned off what I feel for him.. but now I see that he does not feel the same way.. If we are to be friends.. so be it. .. if he wants more.. he has to be willing to get off that edge he speaks of.. for I will not give another inch..

I heard and saw quite a bit at the fires tonight.. and perhaps I said to much and asked the wrong questions.. but there was a purpose.. a simple one.. but I wanted to make our ride special.. to see if there was something I could do to make it so.. but now I see that no matter what I had done.. it would have been special to me.. to him it was a meal.. not a snack.. :snorts: posions peaches indeed... a good swat with the pot more like it..

And she went to bed with a throbbing head... from the tension.. and would not sleep well at all..