I went to the stream.. I had not been able to find Seve anywhere... but at least I was able to finish one task.. because Fonce was there... and it was then I gave him his blanket.. I said I had to go find Seve.. we were suspose to go riding.. One thing led to another and I had a very bad feeling... Twice in one lifetime.. betrayed by a friend... But I had to hear it from her lips... I wanted her to tell me what she had done.. Because only from her would I believe it... and yet.. I did not want to.. my heart was pounding as I returned to the camp... I hollered out her name... and then I spotted her.. wearing his tunic.. her hair unbraided... I screamed for her to get dressed and braid her hair.. I was so angry and upset.. and so very lost over that I saw... My dearest friend.. no longer a butterfly.. Everything we talk of.. our secrets our plans... she took away in a moment of what I assume to be insanity.. Over what?.. Love? Love ... has caused nothing but heartheart.. its evil.. I want nothing to do with it.. Now my friend has succumbed to its vicious touch... All because of her Uncle.. and that man Tumka... a man she did not love nor want... And because of her obiedence to her Uncle she threw it all away and gave herself to Fonce.. Fonce.. my friend.. How do I even approach this... How do I look at my friend now.. as his slave.. She is not a slave. she will never be a slave.. she did this because her Uncle threw her into a virtual corner.. and because she loves Fonce so much... and did not want to wither and die with another man.. she did this... Skies.... I feel so lost.... We did most eveything together... we explored.. we rode.. we had secrets... Do I just throw that all away... do my feelings for my friend just die because of this? My other friend... did the same thing... but I was really to young to understand.. I bought her from the warrior and gave her to my family.. she is now mated to my brother.. and very happy.. But this.. this is so much different.. I am older.. I understand what it all means.. I am so mad.. I am angry.. I am hurt.. and I will feel the lose of my friend... I offered to take her away .. hide her... I offered to try and free her.. but she loves him... Not in any bone of my body can I imagine that love would do this.. Now she has nothing... just that stupid red ribbon... she will never bear his children.. walk along side him... she will have to compete for his attentions from the 3 other girls he has... That is love? I do not think so.. Deseperation I suspose makes a mind snap... As much as I wanted to be with Ayg.. I would never had given up my freedom just to gravel at his feet for a moments attention... I walked away... with all my freedoms entacted... But if this is what makes her happy.. then who am I to say its wrong for her.. I will miss my friend.. she will always have a part of my heart... and I will protect her from the vicious tongues that waggle at the fires.. I will take her when I go riding... and never will she utter the words Mistress to me.. or serve me.. she is my friend... As much as I wish to strangle her right now... Seve.. is and will always be a part of me..
If I get my hands on her Uncle.. I will personally throw him and that warrior Tumka into the deepest part of the stream...
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