Not Again

I know I am not very good with warriors.. I do not know how to flirt.. or bat my eyes.. or do the silly things some women do to get their attention.. I end up staring or saying something really stupid.. And some take advantage of my downfalls.. and well.. I feel its here we go again.

Now that I can sit back and look at the only experience I have had I realize that it was my own fault.. I was carrying my heart on my sleeve.. I swore then I would not do that again.. But really what I thought was love was really just going to be a very strong friendship.. which is what it was meant to be all along.. but this. this is different... So much more different..

I don't know what to do.. I don't know what to say.. I am frustrated that I don't know what to do... I am scared my lack of knowledge will make him think that I am not worth the time.. I am scared that this is the path my life will take.. always fearful of stepping out and taking a chance.. I am scared that if I take that step I will look more nervous than I really am..

All I can do is be myself.. and hope that he can see inside and maybe just maybe he might want to find out more..