Which way?

I was a comfort to have my mother near my wagons again. I really needed to talk to someone.. Someone I trusted.. So we sat on the step of her wagon and we talked about life and warriors... love and mistrust..

I told her about Tasco and how we met.. and talked. We spoke about feelings and how sometimes people will walk all over others to get what they want.. I nodded.. as I spoke softly: Everything time Tasco gets near. Asria appears.. I want to get to know him.. but I am afraid she is overpowering.. I can not get a word in edgewise.. she feeds him every night.. not sure what else she does.. Seems when we do have a moment to speak she wants to take him off to speak to him..

My mother patted my hand and smiled..and spoke in a gentle tone: Yamka. those kind of women sometimes get what they want and more than they asked for.. They smile to your face then do all they can to cause strife and discord.. My advice to you is to told true to yourself.. Do not fall into her game.. for then you look foolish.. If this warrior has any mettle in him, he will see right through her.. This is the same women you told me was after the warrior Fonce? :I nodded my head: Yes.. and the moment she saw Tasco she made it a point to chase after him.. I will not chase Mother.. its not me.. If what I am is not good enough then he is not the warrior for me. :I leaned forward on my elbows.. and looked at her: I like this warrior Mother.. I want to get to know him... his likes his dislikes.. his thoughts how he feels... but I feel it drifting further and further away.. How do you come close to showing someone how you feel or are.. when there are distractions.. always distractions..

I am not sure if the tears started after or before I spoke.. but I know a few ran down my cheeks... Is it always this way Mother.. is it always this hard? She wiped my tears.. and smiled as she hugged me close.. Yes.. its always this hard.. life is hard and there are many kinds of people to deal with.. and some just not as nice as others.. Just be yourself... and do not fall into her trap.. or any traps set before you.. Some you think are friends. lie in wait for you to make a mistake.. so they can throw it back to you. Do your work. keep your nose clean.. and everything should be alright.