Heart Songs

After Fonce left the streams to think.. I went back to the wagons. Watered my verr.. I felt like an intruder in some private dream.. but I stayed.. I wanted to say so much but I could not get the words to leave my thoughts and drift on the wind.. What would I have said... Perhaps I would say..

Can you hear me? I did not think so.. but I hear you. I can hear the pain your heart carries.. I want to erase it.. make it whole again.. I would tell you that I think of you often.. wishing to know you even more.. Your thoughts and dreams.. your fears... I do not bring great riches... fancy words.. I can only bring myself.. I wonder do you think thats enough?

I would spend each waking breath on making sure you could be happy.. You have such a wonderful smile.. Did you know that?

But I did not say that.. I said I would like to talk to you when you have time.. This is a new feeling for me.. Sheltered so long within the wagons of my parents.. I really have never stepped foot along this path.. No girlish crushes when I was young... With 7 brothers who could have gotten near me.. My goal of making the 1st Fires was met.. I am well liked within my clan.. I have my elderly.. my work.. my family.. but there has to be more.. Right?

But I will tell him.. even if it falls on deaf ears.. and he laughs at me.. at least I tried... and I would know.. Maybe he eyes for someone else... :shrugged: I hope not.. but it is possible.. I mean.. I do not have excitement to bring.. But I have hopes and dreams... I have so much to offer.. but I am scared.. never have I felt so out of step before.. Its like there is a barrier I am trying to overcome. Maybe I should not say anything.. Its all so confusing... On one hand.. I want to tell him. and on the other hand I do not want to seem like I am pushy.. this is all making my head hurt...