My Heart

So where do I begin.. My heart beats every time I am near him..but I won't say anything.. I can't.. We are all Ost's.. Tonight I wanted to just hold him and tell him not all of us are.. but I didn't... but it confirmed my thoughts that he had been hurt.. Still.. this is not something you can just do... He has to well he has to want to.. but he doesn't. I am just a simple woman.. I do not have layers and layers to unravel.. I am what you see.. Sometimes things go over my head.. I am aware it takes me a little longer to figure things out.. but I am not stupid.. far from it.. I am aware of whats going on around me.. I have thoughts and ideas... I care deeply for my tribe.. it will always come first to me.. before my needs and wants.. before my heart...

Tonight was an interesting night.. very interesting.. its funny how you can see people position themselves where they want to be.. but I am not going to do that.. I will help where I can.. do what I can.. and stay out of trouble..

I have to remember to tell mother about Seve..and her ceremony.. I know she will want to come..

Well I need to hit the furs... we are going on an adventure in the morning.. I have to be ready for that..