Stars I see Stars!

One thing about a good rain, is afterwards the sky seems clearer.. almost like its washing itself.. I love stars.. I love the night.. I feel more alive when its quiet. and all you can hear is the sound of the plains.. Sometimes its like you are the only one there.. and its all yours.. Ubara of your own little spot..

I have stayed away from the main fires the last two nights, because I need to gather my own thoughts.. I found I was forming opinions based on others.. and that is not me.. We should always be our own person not what someone expects or wants us to be.. I am what I am.. And when I discover that you will be the first to know... for now I am still scratching my way to find my place.. Maybe I have found it but have yet to realize it.. or nevermind I am making my own head hurt with such deep thoughts..

I have been busy though.. we have crossed the waters and now are regrouping to repair what needs to be done before we start out on the next leg of the journey.. I know that Cana's warrior has left on a quest.. so I will make sure to watch her as well as my elderly..I am sure everything will be alright and he will return to her.. hmmm maybe between that now and that time... his slave might learn exactly what it means to be a tuchuk slave.. :evil grin: Or maybe the sleen will eat really good.. or bad depending.. they might just spit her out.. I do not care for her much.. but I am not a good judge of slaves.. just not my day to watch them I suspose..

I will have to have one of our healers check on one of the elderly women.. She has gotten a very nasty cough..The weather really did not do many of them good... I will have someone check on Amerlia when I see one.. Until then mother gave me something to put in her tea.. and to make sure she stays warm.. I have one of my brothers slaves staying with her.. to keep her fires going and make sure she eats..

I also have one part of Tarra's project completed.. Now I can start on the other one.

Now back to my stars.. Do you see that one? Yes the large one to your right... see how it seems to wink at you? Its not really, but I like to pretend it is. Do you see those over there.. yes to your left a little.. It reminds me of the herd of bosk.. Large and powerful.. Those are the bosk that have given their lives for the welfare of the tribe.. they ride in the cities of dust with our ancestors. What you did not know that? You think a tuchuk would go to the cities of dust without bosk? I do not own any bosk, my father does and so do my brothers. But mother and I do not. We might not be typical as I am finding out. but how a man governs his family is different I am sure from one to another. We have always followed my fathers laws nd he has always followed the Ubars laws. But he has his own set as well. Respect and pride. Honestly and loyalty. And sometimes a little bit of fun. Mother and I did all the cooking.. all the cleaning, washing. Oh my brothers slaves helped some. But mother did not trust them so they were given chores that did not directly affect our personal things. My father has never actually owned a slave.. I know he has used them for what ever it is warriors use them for. but out of respect for my mother he never had one in our wagons.. She would have never lasted long anyway. Mother would have found a way to made sleen foder from her sooner or later. She does not care if my brothers have them or even if Father used them but she did not want one hanging around our wagon.. Wow did I get off track..

Do you like my stars? I do.. their are a comfort and a source of imagination.. and sometimes they can just give you that little bit of time away from reality.