I am happy that finally Cana and I were able to get together and the beast is now mine.. After a few rides. I hae named him Cloud Dancer. I suspose its because when I ride him. I feel like I am within the clouds.. no worries or cares.. I need that feeling.. So much has gone on.. and I have not really written much about it..But something struck at my heart so severe that I am not sure I will ever forgot it.. And not its nothing to do with The Ubar or Mezzo.. I have resolved to just ignore most of that.. but this was much worse.. and I feel that things were said to this child.. but not explained fully.. and the lie was allowed to be held as truth..
I found the magic boots.. pressed against the bank of the stream.. I think right then I knew.. that this was how it was going to be.. that this woman was always going to find me guilty..for she has in a way passed this on to her child.. an innocent that was brought into the world of adults.. The truth of the matter is.. right now I no longer care.. I spoke the truth.. I aplogized to her.. but she feels the need to dwell on it... the child should have been told the truth.. that lays on the heart of the mother...
I will continue to live and thrive... without their friendship.. if that is how they want it.. Cana and I spoke about my feelings for Ayg.. she asked me if I want him happy.. Of course I do.. but there is a part of my heart that will always cry for him.. And from what I have found out that is perfectly normal..
Life goes on.. it really does
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