Words from my Mother

Early in the morning I sought out my mother.. my father and brothers had to tend to their bosk.. and other things, so she was alone at her wagons.. There was so much I needed to say to her.. and so as we had some blackwine we spoke. I told her about prospects not being treated as prospects.. She knew how much I worked to gain the place I was given.. but she said not everything in Gor is fair.. and some get past without doing much.. but its those that work hard for it.. that usually last the longest.. as they are the ones that wanted it more..

I told her of my heart.. and things that confused me.. Which I will not even go into detail here.. and my mother patted my hand.. do not be in such a hurry.. She started to tell me a story.. Once when I was much younger .. there was a warrior I wanted so badly to notice me... He was of the 1st fires.. and of course I was not.. he was a commander of 10.. and I thought I loved him so much.. there was another young woman.. and she thought to get this warrior.. so she would be anywhere and everywhere he was.. even as much as to push me to the side without anyone noticing.. Oh so what happened... Well.. my mother went on.. The warrior of course noticed her.. even though he knew how I felt.. it would seem this other woman was more outgoing and she was determined to get what she wanted... And so he started to ignore me.. and I was so very hurt.. every where I went their they were. he acting like a complete fool and the woman tried to act like she was something she was not.. Until something happened.. and this warrior was stripped of his command.. :I nodded as I listened..: So what happened? Well.. this woman.. had her eyes not on the man but on the commander... and so.. she moved on to a warrior that had taken his command... So you see Yamka.. Osts come in all shapes and sizes.. and some will tease you into a complacant attitude.. and then strike.. Did you hang back Mother.. and just try and stay away from where they were? . Nodding her head: Yes.. I did not want to see them together.. I was jealous of course.. but I was more hurt. He was the first warrior I ever liked.. :she took my chin into her hand: I know you are unhappy about some things.. but there are some things you can control and others you cannot.. a heart is one of them.. Just be who you are.. If this man is too blind to see then he was not the one your heart was really calling to... :I left her wagon as I saw my father coming up the row... Thank you mother.. I will see you soon..